I've been having this reoccurring theme appear in my dreams about my death by hanging. It never happens the same way and I may not hang every night but the dream always leads up to the final moment when someone screams out for my release or I drop. Sadly enough I'm not scared of it, mostly just baffled. There is never the impending fear of a nightmare just an overwhelming calm. Crazy I know! It's terribly random and I'm not sure what to think of it. Strange sensation to feel yourself drop and know your dead but not be afraid of it.
I've just done a bit of research on my dreams and from my own interpretation of a reoccurring theme concerning my death by hanging, I am meant to learn a lesson, a very strong lesson of leaving something behind, letting something "die" that is in my life that has been lingering or "hanging" onto my thoughts. Sadly, I know exactly what it is and I can't make it go away. It's the last thing I think about at night and the first thing I think of in the morning. I talk about it constantly and think about it more. It's always on my mind. How do you get rid of something that is that attached to your mind? It's ridiculous really I berate myself every time it comes up but it still comes up. I apologize when I talk about it but I still say it out loud. Obviously I know it has to go because after I hang I'm so calm. Who does that? You would think if you died you'd wake up a mess, freaking out about how you might die during the day, but not this time, not for me. This time I'm relieved, not even relieved because I wasn't stressed in the beginning I'm peaceful and complacent.
How do you let it all go? How do you forget about it, stop talking about, stop dreaming about it, stop thinking about it?