Well it actually could be a number of things. An ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend and wants so badly to introduce you. An old crush is married and sends you all the pictures of the wedding. Your best friend is having a baby or a second in this case. To me, the absolute epitome of a hopeless romantic, all of these things are equally wretched. Never having deep feelings for the ex it just burns that he is so terribly happy with the new girl. The crush getting married, well why is it that he has to rub it in your face that he is so entirely content and makes sure you know that you just were not the right one for him. Mostly because you told him no but that was only because you were afraid of getting hurt. Now you are on the sidelines watching him move on. And finally your best friend is pregnant with child number two and you, you poor soul, are still single with no prospects and more then likely will end up an old spinster because you said no to the one that might have made you happy and you let the opportunity for the wedding and the children pass you up.
“But you have the adventurous life.” They try to tell you. “You can do what ever you want, move where ever you want and be happy.” Happy? Ha! How can one be happy when they are so entirely miserable in the state of their lives? Yes I live where I please, I do what I please and I make friends with whom I please. But what is that to the steady life style of actually having a relationship with anybody?! The last call of the day, falling asleep in the arms of a person you love… strike that. I am not sure I could share my sleeping space. I spread and move about too much. Maybe I reject the relationships because that means someday I will have to share my sleeping space. It could be fully possible. It would, in fact, make much more sense.
However it is still a damned depressing day!
I am blaming it completely on the weather of courses and entirely missing the sun too much. 358 days of sun a year to if your lucky 100. Brilliant move!
